Busy Busy

OO wow ive been so busy lately upating this website and mainly working on my other site.. i need to learn to balance both.

A friend and her love

I always imagine your gentle touch
Im so happy you know i feel this much
Not being with you is tearing me apart
because i now know i’ve got your heart
If you could only see the luv in my eyes
Of all those nights i sat and cried
Just look at me i’m standing here
Just call out my name and i’ll be there
How long the wait, I don’t know
When that day comes i’ll let it show
The unconditional love i have for you

Productive and Single

I was speaking to one of my cousins the other night and I pointed out to her that she seem to be more productive careerwise when she’s not in a serious relationship, i.e. shacking up, engaged, or married as opposed to just screwing from time to time. She had never really thought of it that way but she sayed I was right. Without the daily drama, affection responsibilities, LOL, etc., she do get a lot more done.

If you look back throughout your life, do you feel that you are more productive when you are single or in a committed relationship? I read a book awhile back about women who do not succeed in their careers because they put too much of their time and energy into relationships. I wonder if that is why a lot of women are waiting until later to get married and if there is a direct correlation to women owning more businesses and making more money than ever.

One of the case studies in the book was about a woman who had been held back because of a man but once she decided to redirect her energy, she went from being a waitress to realizing her dream of owning several restaurants. What are your thoughts?

A hope for my heart

I do hope i don’t make the same mistakes as a I did last year. I put myself in the back seat pulled a wool sheet over my eyes and let everything be. Been like this for a while Now. But this is a new year and i hope to God i dont repeat the foolish mistakes made. I learnt. I honestly learnt. Men, men my age are game players. I learnt never to take them seriously. But I cannot control my heart. God, I pray I plead please look out for me.

Confused Heart

Why is it the one you love never tends to feel the same way as you do? And why is it when you find out things have come to an end, you can’t let go, because you know how much that person means to you, and how special he/she is. Why is it the minute others find out you are single they believe they have all the answers for you such as trying to push you forward into yet another relationship? Or all the jerks, or maybe a few nice men even will flock to your side trying to win you over.

All I wish I could do is turn back the clock and have another chance at trying to set things right, figure out where things started to go wrong and fix it, to be able to express myself as I wish I had how long ago to the one that means the most to me. I don’t want to leave certain people in the past and move forward.

I know I may be sounding stubborn and selfish, but its just how I feel and sometimes certain things are harder to let go of than others.